Turning 3

Well Kamie has turned 3! We had two different parties for her this year. One was just for family and we had cake and ice cream and jello jigglers (for Kamie). She did get to stick her hand in the cake and try some. She didn't have an allergic reation this time, maybe she is starting to tolerate a trace amount of milk and eggs. And then we had a BBQ for all our close friends, well I should say that they are only friends with us because they adore Kamie! I swear that kid has more friends (grown ups and kids) than Dave and I. She has had a very busy week and the crankiness to prove it!
She has gone a few months without a major seizure and very few minor ones. Kamie did have a grand mal last weekend, but we didn't need to go to the ER. The medicine we have stopped it after about 15 minutes and then she was just Really lethargic for about 2 1/2 hours. Maybe it was the fact that it was one o'clock in the morning or that she hasn't had one like that in so long, but it scared me. She has been doing so awesome for the last 6 months, sitting up, making contact, playing with toys and now crawling a little. It was just so terrifing to see her vacant expression and completely lifeless body when I have gotten used to her being so full of life. I sat there holding her in my arms, bawling and feeling so helpless. I don't know how I made it through the last few years especially the first ones when she was like this all the time. She was so exhausted that she couldn't lift up her head at all or even squeeze my finger. I look at that little girl and I can't believe the determination and courage she has. And when she hugs me and says mum, mum mum I don't know what I did to be given such a special gift. No amount of the tears, pain or sacrifice I go through can even compare to what she gives me in return. To be trusted with the life of an angel seems like it should be given to someone more worthy than me.